So its weigh in tonight and I am sooooo not looking forward to it!!! This last week I started with all good intentions but I have to say they lasted until Wednesday evening !!!!
At the moment I just feel like I’m in a forest and yes I mean forest not a wood…. going round and round totally lost really need to find the way out though other wise I will be jacking it in….. I know really that I don’t want to I want to lose weight I want to be healthier I want to go shopping and buy clothes that I like and not just ones that fit….
So FFS what is stopping me ??? Honestly I have no idea apart from its ME that’s stopping ME but how the hell do I break this fucking cycle that I have been stuck in for months !!!!
I know what I should be doing and I know what I shouldn’t be doing I can come up with a million excuses but they are just excuses and not real reasons …. I didn’t like where I started so do not want to go back there and to be honest I don’t really like where I am now but …….
So am I thinking about it to much or not enough…. I will NOT let these demons beat me !!!